I'm BAAACK!!

 So, a family member started a blog, and I remembered mine!

I've really missed you. And you've missed so much!

First, I was baptized! I am a proud member of the Jesus Christ Church of Latter Day Saints! Yep! I'm a Mormon. And I'm back at school in Auburn. My boyfriend and I are doing great. Really great.

There's a lot you've missed, but here are the important things!

When I last left off, I was in such a bad place. In fact, Death almost claimed me. Almost. I was saved by an angel who turned out to be one of darkness. That happens. Humans are always the best of people. I know that and I love them anyways.

I also went through a really dark place. Angels or darkness can do that to you. Drag you down and almost claim you, but luckily, there was a force much stronger than that one. I had the Lord on my side, and he saved my life. But he acted so strongly through my mother. She and I get along so well now! I've learned how to be a better daughter. Now I'm learning how to be a better younger sister.

Austin and I are still inseparable. And the doctor I once had to CONVINCE to let me have him absolutely LOVES him. She's seen him in action many times.

My life is going well!


Except when it's not.



Whitney & Austin

But now I'm so much better! Don't get me wrong, the war is SO not over.

Living through it.

It's that simple. Everyday I live through this. Pain, hurt, fears. It's all their. The nights are the hardest. Being in Hawaii, my boyfriend is deep in a sleep by the time night rolls around here. Nothing can ever take away the pain of night. I don't know what makes it hurt so bad, besides of course feeling terribly alone. But not only bad things have been happening in my life. A ton of good, too!

One thing, is planning for Aaliyah's ninth birthday. It's in two weeks, and is looking to be a stellar party. I have also been heavily involved in her Girlscouts! My sister is a Brownie. I've also rediscovered my love for music. Surrounding my self with upbeat songs always makes a night like this difficult. I have been spending more time at the skatepark. Some of the guys there say they're "Surfing the concrete waves." I love that. I haven't met many of them, I'm shy. And I want to know who I am. I lost my identity after my first break up, but I'm getting it back. Re-identifying myself and my passions. I'm still wishy washy, though. I intend to start working on learning a song, and getting a job. But, that's for another day. I just wanted to update. Austin and I, we're doing well. I've even started going to places without him. Quite often, actually. But he's my baby, and I still have days where I need him. I love my SD. Nothing will ever change there.


Signing out,


Whitney and Austin